I haven't been around... like at all. It's because I basically moved to deviantart. I have drawn lots and lots and lots of stuff this summer, it's been an incredibly productive time for me. My skill has taken a considerable leap in a few months and my style has developed lots too. So if I'm not drawing stuff, I'm dealing with stuff over at deviantart. Let's see how school changes things but it's entirely possible my activity at LJ will remain as low as it has been.


but anyway, here, have some arts.

( lots )

annnnd... that's all for now. I have several artstuffs on my hands right now too and I can only hope I manage to finish them all before school starts on 1. september.

anyway, I'm HELLA EXCITED for Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. What most people don't know is that I've been transformers-crazed since the 2007 movie. I have a bunch of action figures, posters, stickers, the like. My Optimus Prime action figure is my bff. He understands me.

I would see the movie 3 times in one day but I'd seem like a retard to the staff like that. So I'll have to make do with seeing it once on the first day. And then once every day after that for like a week. I saw the first movie a total of 6 times in a theater (once in London yay, it was like... at the Odeon or smth.) and I plan to see this one at least a few times more than that.

Wednesdayyy I can't waiiiit.

I have my maths exam tomorrow and I am mighty afraid - I don't know shit about maths! I'm so afraid I will fail, although I shouldn't, as I don't suck that bad at maths overall, there are just certain things I don't get at all and I will bet you moniez the things I can't do will make up the majority of the exam. Well, I have to just manage the minimum amount of points that let you pass. I don't care how well or bad I do (math sucks), I just want to pass and put it behind me. After that I have absolutely nothing to worry about - the english exam is an absolute piece of cake for me.

After that comes graduation - I have to look pretty for that and I can't be assed... I still haven't booked a time with the hairdresser, I don't have the hair accessories I want, I don't have the shawl I want. Atleast I have my boots and I have my dress poofed up... so it's ok.

Well, best of all, I'll be seeing KMFDM live on Friday!! <3<3<3 yes yes yes!

here are some of my most recent pieces. They are huge, beware!


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today I got up at 6 am again, to read my yaoi mangas... right now I'm being cockblocked by my mom who has her back towards me, but still, what if she saw her little barely 16 year old daughter is looking at gay pronz D: BTW my birthday is tomorrow. which basically negates getting up at 6 am (or even sooner) because my family will come and sing happy birthday to me in the morning. Now it wouldn't be nice at all if I was sitting on the computer instead of sleeping in my bed at that moment .____. I am chagrined.



OH GOOD SHE LEFT OHOHOHOHOHO

got up at 6:30 am this morning to read all them yaoi mangas. it's 10 am right now and I've only read a few of them. And now my lil sis and lil bro are hanging here, watching cartoons =A= I keep asking them "Don't you want to watch the cartoons on the other tv, it's much bigger. ARE YOU SURE you don't want to????" and they're like "NO GO AWAY" and I am cockblocked yet again! frustrating~

I woke up at 7:30 am to read my yaoi mangas on the comp (it's in the living room...) but now it's 9:32 am and my family's ALREADY crawled out of their rooms! First my little sis, then my dad, then my big sis... one after the other they all crawled in here and I am severely cockblocked! DURRR. bye manlove for another full day D:

I am dyingto get out of here, to find some new friends. I live in a small town of 6000 an go to a school of 900. I have nothing in common with any of my current friends, they are a bunch of brainless sheep, douches, assholes, whatever. I don't have similar music tastes with any of them, no similar views on the world, no similar sense of humour, nothing. I am tired of the people surrounding me and I am willing to bet they are tired of me.
I want to go to school in the big city. To be around new people. But that means I would have to actually start studying, and that would suck. Also several hours of the day would be wasted just for riding the bus to and fro. So I'm too lazy to actually do it. But I don't want to stay here either :C sux.

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.


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damn hair dye company, sky blue doesn't = turquoise!! My hair is turquoise. I don't want it to be turquoise!

I had like 3 dreams last night. 2 of them were nice. But one was not. At all.
So here is the scariest dream I have ever had.


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I.... I don't even know. I would... do anything to get to that festival. That's like... one third of all the bands I have ever really loved. Even 1 fifth( my favourite man ever, Duff McKagan) of Guns N' Roses, my favourite band ever, is there (Loaded).

Nine Inch Nails.
Metallica.
Slipknot.
Loaded.
All in one place.


I will get down there, no matter what it takes. I will.

guys. I have this dress for graduation.



also it will be puffed up really good, because I will get a giant puffy skirt to put under it.
so it will be all really 50's like.
But with a very goth twist. And I need shoes for the dress.

Do you think these would go?
(also want them because I've wanted them for ages and they are sexxay)
Or something more subtle?

Bear in mind, I am *not* going to wear some ordinary little shoesies because I don't want to. I am a ~*rebel*~.
Plus I'd prefer if they were more like boots, because I kinda have cankles and my legs aren't nice at all, so I want to cover them up.

so yesterday I got sent out of maths class. For not paying attention and not knowing the answer to one thing. I have never been this upset about anything in my life.

Nothing has ever shaken me before. Last year I had really shit grades and lots of other problems, but I was still my usual cheery self. I have never let anything get to me and I've gotten over the worst things with half an hour's crying.

So I don't know, maybe it was the fact that I've generally been a good student and nothing like this has ever happened to me before, maybe because it was so totally undeserved and unjust, maybe it was all the things I've swallowed and endured just breaking out in one great marathon of tears. But I left the class, already in tears and I cried the whole way home. I went straight to my room and I cried for 2 hours before I fell asleep. I woke up in the evening and I cried some more. For a few hours most certainly. Nothing seemed to help, not my angry music, not my sad music, not my happy music, nothing. I just cried and cried and cried. And cried some more. At 2 am I think I ran out of tears and stopped crying, so I was finally able to fall asleep.

I don't even know why, but this was such a great emotional shock for me. I feel like I never want to show my face to the maths teacher ever again, or even go back to that school at all, even though I have a quarter-year left. This was the point where I first thought of continuing my studies somewhere else or even becoming a exchange student.


Congratulations maths teacher, you've managed to break the spirit of the most cheerful person in school.

I wish I had rl friends who listened to the same music as I do. It sucks being surrounded by Avril Lavigne fans. *boohooo cry moar *

Ladies and (non-existent) gentlemen, I give you.... An-Tan in BLUE!!!


it's a darker, more purplish shade than I wanted but they didn't have the color I wanted so I went with this and it's great nonetheless!

excuse the shitty cellphone pic plz :D

this is the life. Family's out watching snow-white and the seven dwarfs ballet (lol) and I'm home alone, blasting Nine Inch Nails from the speakers, eating candy and browsing my flist. Couldn't get better.

btw, my hair is blue now (finally!) about a month after I made the decision to dye it blue. Pic coming later.

what was once black is now a nice bright copper with blonde roots. I'm well on my way to blue hair :')

I tried to dye my black hair blue. I used 3 bleachers but I only got my roots blonde so I said fuck it and dyed at least those blue. It looks like shit lol. I don't want to go to school with my head looking like that. I'll go to a hairdresser and tell her to get my hair blonde in some way, say the blue is because of a lost bet and then go get some more blue dye and get it real blue.